The Villainous Noble Who Kept Rewinding After Death: The Story Somehow Changed When I Committed Suicide

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The Villainous Noble Who Kept Rewinding After Death: The Story Somehow Changed When I Committed Suicide

Chapter 32: The Past with Miria

I was taken aback when Miria suddenly expressed her desire to join our journey, but after regaining my composure, I flatly replied to her.

“Not happening.”

(No, it’s just outright impossible. Why do I have to take her along? She’d just be a nuisance.)

“W-why is that! Fiera-san is going with you, so why can’t I?!”

“Because you can’t fight.”

Upon hearing my words, Miria fell silent, seemingly at a loss for words.

Sure, Miria could use a little magic, but it was just a smidgen. We were about to challenge dungeons and monsters ranked A and higher.

Bringing along someone like Miria, who had little to no combat experience, would frankly just be dead weight.

“But, I can cook and take care of things!”

“Not needed. We’ll mostly be staying at inns, and even when we camp, Fiera and I can cook something simple.”

Adventurers sometimes find themselves having to camp due to the nature of quests.

Thus, Fiera could likely whip up some basic meals, and I had cooked for myself while on the run in my past life.

(Well, I’m not sure if Fiera’s cooking is any good, but it’s probably better than eating raw magical organs.)

After saying that, Miria clenched her fists in frustration and looked down.

Curious about her reaction, I decided to ask her about it.

“Why do you even want to come along?”

Until now, Miria had been an ordinary maid, neither good nor bad, and had never involved herself deeply with me.

The only time we were closely connected was when I was in danger of dying because of her.

So I really couldn’t grasp why she’d be asking something like this.

Miria started working in this mansion when I was five. She was only eight at the time and began working as an apprentice because her mother was employed here as a maid.

However, Miria was the only child apprentice, and since you couldn’t have a kid doing heavy labor, she mostly learned the basics while also keeping me company as a playmate.

Since I was the only child in the mansion, playing with Miria was fun, and I grew attached to her like an older sister.

But as we grew up and began to understand our positions, the distance between us gradually increased, and our relationship shifted from playmates to one of master and servant.

We kept a certain distance afterward, and Miria made it a point to stay away from me more than necessary. However, during my fourth life, there was an event that led to us getting more involved.

At that time, I didn’t understand why I died at the end of my third life, so I locked myself in my room.

Both my father and mother were extremely worried, but I was more scared of having died for no reason, which kept me from going outside.

I spent two and a half years without leaving my room until it was time to return to the academy.

However, still filled with dread from that experience and despair over my repeated deaths, I had decided not to attend the academy this time. But right before enrollment, I lost consciousness again.

When I regained my senses, I somehow found myself already enrolled and had been at the academy for a while, with bad rumors already circulating about me.

Iris had already met the protagonist and fallen in love, but I was more interested in figuring out why this was happening.

So I went to ask Miria, my exclusive maid who was supposed to be here with me, about everything that had happened. But all I got in return was a disdainful glare and a cold attitude from her.

Two weeks later, I was wrongfully accused of crimes I had no idea about by the protagonist and locked up.

At that time, Miria came to see me, but instead of comforting me, she taunted me, claiming she had given information to the protagonist.

In the end, I remained in that jail for a long time, suffering from illness due to a terrible environment and dying in agony.

I found out later that during the time I had lost consciousness, I had been abusive towards Miria, and she had harbored resentment toward me all along.

Because of this, she had fallen for the protagonist, who had comforted her during her emotional wounds, and provided him with my information as a form of revenge.

In my fifth life, instead of constantly rewinding after death, I began to resent the protagonist for putting me in these situations over and over again.

So after enrolling in the academy, I teamed up with some underground organizations to plot the protagonist’s assassination.

I thought that if he died, this repetitive cycle of life would end. I made thorough preparations, but when I tried to execute my plan, I simply died from poison in my tea.

The last thing I saw before my vision faded was Miria, trembling with a pale face, repeatedly saying, “I’m sorry.”

At that moment, I couldn’t ask her why, but she must have met the protagonist somewhere and fallen in love, ultimately killing me to protect him.

Otherwise, she wouldn’t have had a reason to kill me at that specific time.

So here I am, having been killed by Miria twice in my last two lives, but as I’ve said before, I don’t hold anything against her.

I was at fault during my fourth life, even if I wasn’t conscious, and by the time I got poisoned and entered my sixth life, I had died so many times that I had lost the capacity for anger.

More than anything, I was focused on figuring out how to escape this never-ending cycle of death.

That being said, the only time Miria and I have been deeply connected was when I was dying, which happened after she enrolled at the academy and met the protagonist, so her sudden desire to get involved with me now made no sense.

“I am Luis-sama’s exclusive maid! I have a duty to follow you! So please, let me come along!”

“Hmm. So it’s because you’re my exclusive maid, huh? So it’s just a job?”

“Yes.”

“Got it…”

When I said that, Miria’s face showed relief, but then I dropped a bombshell that left her face filled with despair.

“Then, I’ll remove you from being exclusive. From now on, I’ll have you do stuff around the mansion with the other maids.”

“…Huh?”

“Hm? Didn’t you hear? I’m removing you from exclusive maid duty. I’ll let my father know, so you can leave the room now.”

If she wants to come along just because she’s on duty, I’ll remove her from that role.

This way, I wouldn’t have to deal with any further annoying arguments, and she wouldn’t come along—two birds with one stone. No, if she wouldn’t be following me after enrolling at the academy, does that make it three birds?

“…Why?”

While I was contemplating all this, Miria was staring at me with her body trembling. For some reason, tears were glistening in her eyes.

“Why on earth are you saying something like that? Am I really that much of a nuisance?!”

I didn’t understand why she was getting so emotional, but there was no point in being soft here, so I expressed my honest feelings.

“Um, to put it bluntly, yeah. We’re planning to travel around the world for about two years.

So if we traveled by carriage, we’d run out of time in no time, and we need to keep moving at top speed.

You wouldn’t be able to keep up with us, would you? I can’t carry you while running, and we can’t always fly in the air using flying magic.

So for our future, having you with us would just be a hindrance.”

If someone were to see me now, they’d probably call me cold-hearted. But I didn’t care at all how others felt about my words or actions.

I was no longer living for the sake of others; my goal was to do what I wanted and die doing it.

“That’s why I can’t take you with me. If you understand, could you please just leave the room?”

After that, Miria said nothing, bowed her head silently, and left my room.